Excerpt
Rafe caught up to me as I vaulted down the stairs and landed on the lawn. He jumped after me and his momentum sent him slamming into me and we both sprawled onto the grass. I rolled onto my back and stared at the sky. The stupid blue sky.
"Sorry." He propped himself up on his elbow and peered down at me. "I didn't mean to tackle you. You okay?"
"Fine. It's my weekend for being tackled by guys, apparently." I suddenly realized his face was right over mine. Like, his lips were inches from my face. All he had to do was lean over a little and... I squeezed my eyes shut and sighed. "Go away."
"What audition?"
"NorthEast Seminary secondary school program." I peeked out of my left eye, and he was still leaning over me. So close I could smell his cologne or aftershave or whatever it was. It didn't matter what it was. It simply smelled amazing. So I closed my eyes again and started breathing through my mouth.
"Are you kidding? You got an audition for NESM? That's awesome."
A bubble of pride popped up at his genuine admiration, but I immediately popped it. "No, because I'm going to fail at it and embarrass your aunt and my family. So I'm not going."
I felt a tap on my forehead. I opened my eyes. "What?"
His hair had flopped over his forehead and he looked totally cute. "You're really not going?"
"Really." I waited for him to tell me I was throwing my future away. To tell me what an idiot I was. To tell me that refusing to try was the worst kind of failure.
But all he did was flop on his back, his shoulder resting against mine. "Cool."
This time I propped myself up on my elbow and peered down at him. "Cool? How?"
His green eyes flicked toward me. "Cool that you're doing your own thing. If you're not ready, then it's good not to do it."
I frowned. "Really? You mean that?"
"Sure."
"Oh." I laid back down on my back, no longer touching him. I mean, I wanted to, but I wasn't exactly going to scoot across the grass so I could.
Instead, he shifted until his head was resting against mine. "You're wrong, you know."
Here it comes. "For not doing the audition?"
"No, for thinking you don't have passion. You do when you play the JamieX song."
I sighed and tried not to think about the fact that his head was resting against mine. "But I can't create it."
"Don't try. Just have fun."
I frowned. "Music isn't about fun."
He immediately leaned over me. This time he was wicked close, so close I could smell his toothpaste. Mint. "What did you just say?"
Um, good question. I was having a little trouble thinking with his mouth so close to mine. What if Rafe was my first kiss? That would be so amazing.
"You think music's not about fun?"
Oh, right. I had said something about that. "It's work. It's a career. It's not fun."
He shook his head and made a face. "You are so wrong, babe."
Babe ? I was his babe? Oh. My. God.
"You and me. Tuesday night. We have a date."
I blinked. "A date?"
Something flashed over his face. "Well, not a date , date."
"Because you have a girlfriend." Stupid girlfriend.
"And you have a boyfriend."
The words hung in the air, and for a moment, with him still staring down at me, I wanted to tell him the truth. To see if he'd care. To see if it would change anything. |